"Envy is the desire for another's traits, status, abilities, station, or worldly goods. It need not be associated with an object; its salient characteristic is the unfavorable comparison of one's own status with that of another.

Envy is one of the seven deadly sins in the Catholictradition. It is considered sinful because envious people ignore their own blessings, and focus on others' status rather than their own spiritual growth.

Envy is often confused with the Deadly Sin of covetousness, or greed, a desire for material wealth (which may or may not belong to others). Envy in its covetous form is forbidden by the Ten Commandments in the Bible.

In some cultures, envy is often associated with the colour green, as in "green with envy". The phrase "green-eyed monster" refers to an individual whose current actions appear motivated by envy. This is based on a line from Shakespeare's Othello."

This is according to wikipedia.

Bakit pa kasi nauso ang salitang ito.  Well, wala tayong magagawa nature natin yan.  Its just but cliche to think that most of us envy someone.  This could be in the form of the physical characteristics, talents, or some other stuff.  To know that fact that it is part of the 7 most deadly sin.  It is just that there is this someone that is threat to everything that we do.  I mean here that there is someone who will be greater that ourselves. 

Reality check-up:  Most of us hate people who are greater than ourselves.  We consider them sometimes as competitors or somethin'.  Wag na kayo mag maangmaangan.  Please be honest with yourself. 

I really admit that I like competition.  I want to be the best of all.  Eventhough I don't usually show it.  Madalas ako inis sa mga taong nagmamagaling [meaning: mas magaling sa akin ].  I consider them that way because they are threat to me.  Ewan ko ba kung bakit ako ganito mag-isip.  Ang sama ko. Pero siyempre may masasabi naman talaga ako eh.  Not that I want to be arrogant but what can i do? I'm only human.  I'm just being honest. 

The only thing we can do is to think that their are more people greater than ourselves.  Stop comparing with others.  Yun lang.  Kahit na mahilig ako magcompare.  I know what is on your mind, Eh bat nag-aadvice ka pa? Paki-alam mo.  Just kidding.  I'm working on it right now.  I always control myself not to express to much jealousy that might BLOW myself.  Kasi kung iisipin mo ikaw ang pinaka magaling, aba ano ka DIYOS? 

This entry won't be very important for you but I still think it is important.  Basta...

Last thursday night there was I fire near our place.  In fact, I was really in deep sleep. I didn't even noticed the fire truck passed by our place.  My aunt and my cousins knew there's a fire.  It was 1:30am they said.  They didn't even wake us up.  No one knows what could had happen.  Well, past is past..   

Because of the fire last thursday night near our place, my cousin and I became conscious on what things we are going to carry with us out of the house in case we had any fire.  But we really hope it will not happen to any of us. Because I would die, promise.  I'll go crazy! 

To know the fact that I don't live in places such as forbes and valle berde. So I decided to make my top 5 most things to carry when there's fire.

# 5:   PS2 - Malay mo hindi madala ng kung sino man.  At least, naisip ko. Pwede rin ibenta yun if ever. Di ba? 

# 4:   CD/Audio/Radio player - T'was given to me 6 years ago.  That was the time when ipod still don't exist with my vocabulary.  It was my first gadget and still rockin' my world.  Eventhough it  jumps sometimes.  Still good for jammin'.  I always take it with me inside the bathroom.  I don't take a shower without this gadget. 

# 3:   Badminton Racket - I'm an addict! I love to swing my racket. Smashing.  Hitting somebody in the face. I'm on high.  Hindi ko maramdaman ang pagkapagod.  Madalas ako maglaro 3 to 4 hour once a week malapit sa school namin.

# 2:   School Stuff -  Hindi ako matalino pero hindi ko pa rin iniiwanan ang aking pag-aaral.  Studying is very important for me. Kaya ito ang 2nd kasi naman po mahirap sa school namin.  Kelangan mong itago yung mga notes mo kasi magagamit mo pa rin siya sa future.  Like Calculus and other Math stuff! Hate that but I don't have any choice but to study those stuff.

# 1:   My Wardrobes -  I would really die without clothes.  Kasi naman po mga readers matagal ko rin pong inipon yung mga damit ko.  Kasi naman po ulit hindi ako mayaman.  And to know the fact that I study in a school without uniform.  Different wardrobe is important.  Don't expect me to wear the same clothes the same week.  No, no, no...

Why I didn't want to take my PC with me?  coz' my PC stinks! Napaglumaan na ng panahon, ika nga.  Masyado maluho itong mga dadalhin ko palabas ng bahay.  Of course, I won't bring any of this if I know my life is at risk.  I don't have any choice kung sila yung unang nasunog. At least I have back-ups.  Just be very careful with fire, kids!  Wagtatanga-tanga!

We can say that being successful in life means taking up responsibilities.  I do responsibilities or i should say tasks but i don't usually do tasks that will affect a group.  I'm referring to those tasks such as seminars, reunions, outings, etc.  I really hate being the leader.  I don't like to lead a team that will blame me in the end.  I don't want to be the cause of failure of the group.  I don't want people blaming me for what I did.  I really hate failing someone for what i have did.

Thanks to my friend Alvin, sometimes we call him BINOI, made my life miserable [im just exaggerating this].  I became his assistant [lucky me..i guess].  Actually i'm the official Assistant Educational Committee.  Bravo for some, Boo for myself.  I know your asking, why did I accept this job? Well, some say I should be the head not the assisstant.  And some believe in my potential.  so why not try...

First task that i did was to secure a seminar for the coming foundation day.  Actually this is not my task but what can i do i'm the"assistant."  Only 15 seminars are allowed. Luckily, I passed the proposal on time.  Actually, we were 9th to pass the form.  It was 45 minutes left before the deadline [as in dead].  I really thought it was the end of my reputation [i guess i have].  Next stop, the peer advisers.  Wish we could be successful with this one.  It is time to make MICRO back to the charts. 

Ano kaya gagawin ko sa susunod?

Ika-apat na araw na ng taong kasalukuyan.

I wonder how many people made any resolution for this year?  I assure you, I'm not one of them.  Even if I made any resolutions, for sure I will not be successful with it.  It is really hard to really attain those resolutions.  Not that I don't even try to resolve some of my deficiencies in life,  It is just really hard I tell you. Alam ko hindi lang ako ang nakakaramdam ng ganito.  Sige goodluck and break a leg na lang sa resolutions niyo! 

Ang isang taon na naman ang lumipas.  Isang taong tawanan, iyakan, tampuhan, at biruan ang nakalipas.  Hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga nangyari sa akin noong nakalipas na taon. Hay... Marami ang nangyari sa akin noong 2005.  

Sa taong ito, na-established ko ang kauna-unahan kong blog.  Pitong buwan na ang nakakalipas ng una akong magsulat tungkol sa sarili ko at sa mga nakapaligid sa akin.  Sa totoo lang nahihirapan ako sa bawat entry ko dito.  Mahirap talaga para sa akin ang magsulat.  Ang mahalaga sa akin ay ang makagawa ng maayos na website.  Pero hindi ko naisip na gumawa ng mga sulatin.  Gusto ko lang mapa-WOW! ang sarili ko sa nagawa kong layout.  Nasabi ko na sa entry ko dati na hirap talaga akong express ang sarili ko.  Heto ako ngayon hirap pa rin pero nandito pa rin ako at nagsusulat.  Siguro ang malaking factor <ang hirap tagalugin..tanga nga> ay ang aking kakulangan sa pagbasa ng mga libro.  I'd be honest, I don't usually read books unless I need too. So hindi ako talaga mahilig sa libro.  Sumasakit ulo ko kada magbabasa ako.  Sabi ko nun, "Bakit naman ako magbabasa eh wala naman akong mapapala dyan."  Dun ako nagkamali.  Heto hirap sumulat at makaintindi ng mga sulatin.

Marami rin akong problemang nasubukan.  Isa na dun ang sa pamilya.  Sa eskwela. Sa mga kaibigan.  There's no perfect family, ika nga.  Lagi na lang nasa isip ko ay kagustuhan ng nasa itaas ito.  Pero minsan nasisisi ko siya kung bakit kami nagkakaganito. Pero na-realized k na mali iyon.  Wala akong dapat sisihin sa mga pangyayari.  Masisisi ko ba ang tatay ko kung sawa na siya sa nanay ko.  Mahirap ang magpanggap di ba?  Lagi kang may worries.  Pero alam ko pareho silang may mali.  Hindi ko na lang pinamumukha sa kanila na mali sila. 

Sa taon na ring ito, dalawang beses na rin akong bumagsak sa tanang buhay ko.  Dito ko naramdaman na hindi ako dapat nagrerelax-relax lang sa pag-aaral.  Dito ko na rin naramdaman na nasa kolehiyo na pala ako, inspite na 2nd year na ako.  First year at MAPUA was not that exciting for me.  Eventhough its hard but I never felt the importance of every minute of it. Ngayong nagkaroon na ako ng bagsak, namulat na ako sa pagkakatulog.  Nagsisisi rin ako kung bakit ako bumagsak.  Nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi.

Hindi naman puro lungkot ang nangyari sa akin.  Siyempre meron ding tawanan at biruan.  Ilang buwan na rin ang nakakalipas ng sumali ako sa organization. Sa MICRO ko naranasan ang mga kakaiba.  Nagawa kong maglakad sa koridor ng aming eskwelahan ng nakapang-retro.  May ibubuga ika nga ang mga tao sa likod nitong samahan na ito. Masaya naman ako dito kasi marami akong kaibigan at matuturing ko na ring mga kapamilya kasi ang bait nila sa akin.  Walang kaplastikan ika nga.  Mga totoong tao.  Nandyan ako para sa kanila, siyempre nandyan din sila para sa akin.  Puro masasaya ang mga nararanasan ko sa kanila.  Sa bawat araw na dumaan na kikilala ko sila ng lubusan.  Meron kaming kanya-kanyang personalidad na nagpapatibay sa amin.  Hindi ko talaga ma-explain kung ano ang aking nararamdaman pagkasama ko sila.  Wala na akong hahanapin pagkasama ko sila.  

The whole 2005 was a blast for me.  Many things i've realized.  Many things i've experienced.  I will bare it not only in my mind but also in my heart.  I will never forget that year!  Happy New YEAR!

Sabi ko sa blog ko nung nakaraan baka next year na ako makapag-update, well may pahabol pang onti. Napag-isipan ko kasi na gumawa na lang for the last time this year.  Pahabol na utot kung baga. Hindi sa pagiging balahura pero dun ko siya mahambing.

This week has been the suckiest or one of the suckiest weeks of my life.  All I do is to eat until my stomach aches.would go in front of the mirror and say "Ang taba ko na, din a ako kakain."   Watch DVDs until my eyes breakdown.  I am a couch potato freak.  I want to go out but there are things that matters such as money and no one will be here at our house - I'm the homeboy if you know what I mean.

Knowing the fact that it was just the week after Christ was laid upon as all.  Dapat marami pera. Alam ko nasa isip niyo.  Sa tanda kong ito mamamasko pa rin ako. Well, mahirap ang buhay ngayon kelangan magtrabaho. As expected, NO MONEY AT ALL. So sad to think that I want many things but I can't have it.  Not that I am being materialistic and being defensive, but I am only human.  I can say that I'm not the only one that feels this way.  All the vain people in this world, knows what I feel. Poor little me…