Thank GOD! Should I be jumping for joy coz' this term ended? I guess not. I am so pressured this past few days. I had lots of report to do, exams to answer, and other stuff to pass. I guess I should somehow be happy because at last this term ended for good. But the killing is not yet over. Our grades are yet to be shown. <i wish i pass all the subjects> I keep on asking myself lately, "am i good this past few weeks?" My answer is "NO." I never did my best. I regret everything. When will i learn to do my best? It is always a cliche to think that i should do my best. More words than action. I better change that.
Well, i should face the consequences. I should learn to face the truth. I know i'm not really good but i could be the best if only i have a time for it. I will sacrifice my time in chatting, blogging, surfing, and whatsoever. What the heck? For the better future. why not?
Everything happened to me today was a blast! This mouse sucks! I'm actually at an internet cafe right now at Pedro Gil, Malate, Manila. I guess it's just the way life should be. I'm a student. I never had a good sleep last night. I think i slept for about an hour or so. My head hurts. I'm hungry. I'm bored. But it's nice to think that this is the last week of my freshmen year. I'm actually going to the next level of hell. I hope i would pass math. Thats the only thorn in my ass right now. We'll im the only one who can say if i would pass or not. I say i would....."FAIL." You might say that i'm a negative thinker but i would say that we should face the reality.
We had our compilation of the portfolio this morning. And it was so hot. As in hot. coz' the WHOLE SCHOOL has no electricity. They just opened the generetor. and puff! the fan was ON but the AC is not. ahuhu... But i got over it already. Actually we had a group report an hour ago. I suck i tell you! I was so confident that i would say everything that i want to say but the thing is when i was about to present my report, i forgot everything..here am i again..this was my problem when i was still in high school. My friend calls me "mental block." My mind actually blocks everything! I hate that! So the senario was i acted like an idiot! I pronounce everything like a 3 yr old child. I mean it. The thing is we don't yet have the AC on so the tendency was i perspired so much. I was so embarrased. We'll i don't do that anymore this days but i can't help it. Like i was to explode in hottness.
I hope that i would still pass everything this term. I think i still have hope. We still have our finals next week. Wish me luck!
Welcome
to my site! Well, I made this blog really do the best possible way
to express myself. I really have this mind set that I will do everything
to please everyone and yet we cannot please everyone. It's too complicated
really. I really hate disappointing people. Its just that I don't want
others to see my weakness. So much drama. I'll cut it down...
Shhh....